THE TORTURE OF DAILY LIFE AT NO 10.

COURT CASE PENDING AND I COULD FIND MYSELF EVICTED
THE CHOICE OF AREA I LIVE SEVERLY RESTRICTED
THIS HAS BEEN MY HOME NOW FOR 15 YEARS
BUT WOULD LOOSING BE ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS
IM NOT QUITE SURE,MAYBE IT WOULD BE FOR THE BEST
TO MOVE ON AND LEAVE MY PAST BEHIND TO REST
CAN THIS EVER AGAIN BE CLOSE TO A HAPPY HOME
AFTER THE INNOCENCE WAS STOLEN FROM MY SON
THERE IS NO STRUCTURE RULES OR DISCLIPLINE
PRIDE TO DECORATE IT FEELINGS DEEP WITHIN
THIS ROOF STOPPED BEING A HOME A LONG TIME AGO
AND THE WAY THAT I TREAT IT BEGINING TO SHOW
I CANT STAY HERE AND PUNISH MYSELF ANY LONGER
SIT ON MY OWN MOOD ALWAYS DARK AND SOMBRE
IT’S TIME TO MOVE WE NEED A FRESH START
AS EVERY DAY I SPEND HERE TEARS ME APART
I CAN NEVER CHANGE WHAT MY BABY BOY WENT THROUGH
FROM A PARENT,HIS FATHER SOMEONE HE KNEW
ALL TRUST’S BEEN ABUSED THIS HOME’S BECOME SORRDID
NO HAPPY LAUGHTER,JUST HATE,AND MEMORIES SO HORRID
IF I STAY HERE,FOREVER LET ME BLAME MYSELF SETTLE
THEN THE BASTARD WILL REALY HAVE WON THE BATTLE
I FEARED THAT MAN FOR SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE
EACH DAY I SPEND HERE,IM ALLOWING HIM TO TWIST THE KNIFE
OK SO IM 40,IM STILL IN MY PRIME
AND MAYBE ITS TIME HAPPINESS SHOULD BE MINE
THATS IT MY MINDS UP,I KNOW IN MY HEART
IM READY TO MOVE ON IN LIFE,I DESERVE A FRESH START
NOTHING I DO CAN STOP MY SON GOING THROUGH THAT PAIN
AND LIVING HERE IS SLOWLY DRIVING ME INSANE
SO TODAY IS MY FRESH START,IM LOOKING FOR A NEW HOME
WHERE MY LIFE ON THIS EARTH CAN START TO BE A HAPPY ONE!

SECRETS OF MY MIND!

TO ME YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SUCH A SPECIAL FREIND
NOW GOALS AND TASKS TO ME YOU SEND
NEVER DID I THINK YOU COULD BE MY DOMINANT ONE
OR THIS LIL ONE COULD BRING YOU SUBMISSIVE FUN!I BET YOU DONT KNOW FOR YEARS IV FANCIED YOU ROTTEN?
I CHERISHED ALL YOUR ADVICE,NEVER A WORD FORGOTTEN
ITS A DREAM COME TRUE THE WAY WE CHAT AND TEASE
MAKE EACH OTHER SMILE,AND EQUALY SEEM TO PLEASE!IT’S ALMOST LIKE YOUVE BEEN TRAINING ME FOR YEARS
GETTING INSIDE MY HEAD,HELPING ME FACE ALL MY FEARS
WHO EVERE HAVE GUESSED IT-TRACEY AND ERIC
COULD POSSIBLY BE A DOM/SUB MATCH ALMOST PERFECT?

I KNOW ITS JUST FOR FUN A MONTH OR TWO
AN ADVENTURE TO EXPLORE BETWEEN ME AND YOU
BUT YOU KNOW ME,THE ONE I HIDE BEHIND MY MASK
YOUR SURVEY PROVED THAT,YOU KNEW EXACTLY WHAT TO ASK.

SOMETIMES IT SCARES ME BECAUSE WITH YOU I CANT HIDE
YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME TICK SO VERY DEEP INSIDE
THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WHERE I WANT TO RUN AWAY AND HIDE ANYMORE
MY BODY IS MY GIFT TO YOU….I NEED YOU TO PLAY WITH AND EXPLORE.

FOR 4 YEARS NOW IV BEEN FIGHTING YOUR ADVANCES
I DONT WANT TO RUN ANYMORE INCASE THERE IS NO MORE CHANCES
SO CONSUME MY BODY WITH ADVENTURES,LET US SHARE SO MUCH FUN
TO MY SEXY ERIC FROM YOUR LIL CUM SLUT SUBMISSIVE ONE.X

BE MY BAT OUT OF HELL…………..LOL.X

YOU COMPLETE ME!

THERE IS THIS PLACE FOR YEARS IV VISITED IN MY OWN HEAD
LEGS SPREAD,HANDS UP ABOVE ME,RESTRAINED TO THE BED
THE PERFECT POSITION FOR ANY SUBMISSIVE TO BE
OR AM I MORE THAN JUST SUB CAN YOU SEE THE PERFECT PET IN ME?

PLAY WITH MY HEAD,IT NEEDS A GENTLE MIND FUCK
YOU MIGHT JUST FIND THE REAL ME WITH ANY LUCK
DELVE DEEPER AND DEEPER I PLEAD REALY DIG UP MY MIND
YOU MIGHT BE PLEASANTLY SURPRISED WITH THE SUBMISSIVE YOU FIND.

THE EXITEMENT THAT CONTROLS ME WITH EVERY WORD YOU SAY
TAKES ME TO A PLACE WHERE I LONG FOR YOU TO USE MY BODY TO PLAY
OH HOW I DREAM TO BE THERE SIR KNEELING BY YOUR FEET
COLLAR ON LEAD IN YOUR HAND MAKING MY SUBMISSION FEEL COMPLETE.

DESDAMOANER.

THERE IS JUST SOMETHING MISSING IN MY LIFE!
IM SO USED TO DEALING WITH DESDAMOANER’S TROUBLE AND STRIFE
HE HAS BEEN MY HANDFULL, SINCE HE HIT THE AGE OF TWO
A NIGHTMARE TO ME,OTHERS ALWAYS SEEING THE ANGEL IN YOU!

BLONDE HAIR,BLUE EYE’S AND THAT BLOODY CHEEKY GRIN
NOTHING CHANGED OVER THE YEARS APART FROM NOW YOUR TALL AND THIN
A CHEEKY WE CHANCER,THAT KNOWS HOW TO PLAY ON HIS CHARM
ALWAYS GETTING YOUR OWN WAY,TWISTING MY ARM

IT FEELS SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOUR DAILY CALLS AND TXT’S
REGULAR CUDDLES SO TIGHT YOU NEARLY BREAK MY NECK
IV NO ONE TO ARGUE WITH,OR PUSH MY POINT
CANT EVEN LECTURE YOU,FOR TOKING ON A JOINT!

MIND YOU THE PLUS SIDE IS,THE FOOD CUPBOARDS NEVER BEAR
AND THERES ALWAYS GEL THERE TO FIX MY HAIR
MA PURSE IS A WEE BIT HEAVIER TOO
BUT MA SWEET SON DEEK,IT DOSNT STOP ME MISSING YOU.XXX

YER AULD MAW LOVES THE VERY BONES OF YOU!

AN EXPLAINATION OF”WHO AM I?”

He gave her a pet name"lil cum slut 
 his submissive that yearned to be used by
another
allowing both there needs to be
satisfied
just the thought of the way’s he could
use me
Fill me with
such a deep pride 
Longing,hungering
to be tooken to subs space
taking
all she is allowing her a feeling of pleasure 
Received with all her submissive grace
fulfilling her dream of being tied down 
Not able to move a limb 
Being control at the mercy of another 
others cant see why this may appeal?
or
understand it free’s her mind 
to give into her needs and wants 
To have him make her cry real tears
offering who she is,all of her ,she wants
him to take 
Accepting
whatever he chooses with her submissive grace 
no one understands why subs seek humiliation 
and see it as a way for her Dom to show care
or love 
Yet she know she is
cared for desired and wanted 
 to her there is no sence of degradation 
 just because her head’s bowed eyes cast down 
 dosnt make her the lowest of the low
because
she is misunderstood by some of you
 because she offer
over her body and mind
 yest she is humbled to be his
sub offered this place.
So
what if she seek to feel his punishment 
For the slightest misdemeanour 
longing to feel pain disciplined by his hand 
not just seeking the pleasure of pain 
but alway’s thirsty always longing for it 
she has no need to explain why she walks
this path
  always seeking
and looking for it
 for to her only when fear and
pleasure are entwined
 will
she fully fell she is submitting with all her grace

SUBMISSIVES PLEDGE.

Sir
i promise to always express to
you with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience at

all times,i reolize that failing to do so will not only prevent us
both from
from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical
and
emotional harm. 

I promise never
to try to manipulate
you Sir,nor will i push you Sir to make a scene go the way i feel it
should. In
other words, i accept your
decision will alway’s be final Sir and i
respect that. 

I  promise to alway’s be open
minded about trying things
that i am not totaly comfortable with and
expanding my limits,to help me continue to grow as a submissive and
as a human being Sir. 

I
promise to alway,s freely and
happily accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases you Sir,
and promise to do my best to fufill your every wish,desire and whim at

all times and in all area’s of your life. 

As
your sub Sir i promise i will
never allow myself to be harmed or abused by myself or anyone else,i
know
that  being
a submissive
does not make me a doormat. 

I promise
i will alway’s try to
be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives,and try to share my
knowledge
and experience with others in the hope that they will learn and benefit
from
where i have been both before and since meeting you Sir. 

I
promise i will alway’s
be responsive to you  Sir,and never try to hide what my mind and body
are
feeling which will assist you with your responsibilities as my Dom,i 
know that
Dominants are not telepathics, and will not expect you to know thoughts
or feelings which i have not shared with you Sir. 

I
promise i will  offer my gift
of
submission only to
those firstly that you Sir requests of me and those
that can responsibly accept and know how to use your sub and her
submission properly and safely, and i refuse to give my respect to
someone that
has not earned it or shown respect to me . 

I accept
every sub/slave is
unique and will never think myself a "better" submissive because i choose
to submit on a different level than another.  

I
promise i will alway’s show
total obedience to you Sir even  when i disagree with what you
are requesting,i realize Sir that you alway’s have my best interests at
heart
and will often know better than i  do what i need in  particular
situations. 

I
know that my actions and
manners are a reflection of your training of me Sir , and i will alway’s
aim
to help others see you in a positive and respectfull way,i
will  never  intentionally embarrass or displease you Sir in any way. 

Above all, i accept my title
of being your  submissive  and
will wear my collar with honor,i will never cause others to think that
being
your submissive  means that i
am weak or sub-human and i will take pride in who and what i am

and promise never
to show myself in a negative way while under your
guidance Sir.x

 

FROM FREIND&MENTOR TO MY DOMINANT ONE.

I NEED TO BE DOMINATED IN SUCH A SPECIAL WAY
TO LET THE SUBMISSIVE WITHIN ME COME OUT TO PLAY
THE MENTION OF YOU WITH WHIP IN HAND GIVES ME THE SHIVERS
THAT PICTURE OF ASS IN LEATHER FLOGGER STRETCHED OVER YOUR BACK
CAUSES ME TO BITE MY LIP WHILE IT GENTLY QUIVERSTHE THOUGHT OF YOU USING THE PADDLE OR THE CANE
FEELS LIKE AN ELECTRIC SHOCK RUSHING THROUGH MY BRAIN
ALL THOSE POSSIBILITIES ENDLESS SCENARIOS AND SCENES
ALLOWING ME TO GIVE MY SUBMISSION THIS WAY,
NO-ONE COULD UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS.

I HAVE BOUNDRIES AND LIMITS I LONG TO BE PUSHED
A NEED TO FEEL MY SUBMISSION IS FULLY BEING USED
TO KNEEL BEFORE YOU,HEAD BOWED,EYE’S DOWN CAST
JUST THE THOUGHT OF THIS MAKES MY PULSE RACE FAST.

GUIDING ME,TEACHING ME TO SERVE YOU TO PERFECTION
MY BODY A CANVAS ON WHICH FOR YOU TO DO YOUR SKETCHING
SERVING YOU FREELY IS SOMETHING I FIND COMES WITH EASE
SATISFYING THE NEED IN ME,THE URGE I HAVE TO PLEASE.

MY SUBMISSION IS A GIFT MISUNDERSTOOD BY SOME
TO UNDERSTAND IT FULLY TAKES A VERY SPECIAL DOM
ONE WHO HAS MY FULL TRUST AND THE HIGHEST OF MY RESPECT
THE ONLY DOM WHO HAS ALWAYS SUPPORTED ME,NEVER SHOWING NEGLECT

TAKING ME SO LONG TO SEE YOU MY POTENTIAL DOM,IS SOMETHING I REGRET
JUST THINK OF THE 4 YEARS IV WASTED SINCE ONLINE WE FIRST MET
FINALY IM SHARING YOUR PATH ENJOYING NEW ADVENTURES AND FUN
AS I LET MY ONLINE FREIND AND MENTOR FINALY BECOME MY DOMINANT ONE!

 

YOU SET THE REAL SUBMISSIVE IN ME FREE!

SOMEWHERE DEEP INSIDE OF ME
LIES THE SUBMISSIVE I LONG TO BE
PART OF ME I THOUGHT NO-ONE COULD FIND
UNTIL YOU CAME ALONG AND SOMEHOW READ MY MIND

LEGS OPENED HANDS ABOVE HEAD
TIGHTLY RESTRAINING ME TO THE BED
BLINDFOLDED,MAKING EVERY SOUND SO CLEAR
FILLING ME WITH EXITEMENT,ANTICIPATION AND FEAR.

OOH I CAN HEAR THE SOUND OF A FLOGGER WHIRRING
MY HEART RACES,MOUTH GOES DRY,EVERY EMOTION INSIDE ME IS STIRRING
OOH GOSH……WHEN WILL IT MAKE CONTACT WITH MY SKIN?
LET ME FEEL THE SENSATION I CRAVE DEEP WITHIN!

KNEELING BEFORE YOU IN FULL SUBMISSIVE GRACE
WAITING TO BE USED,OBEDIENTLY WAITING KNOWING MY PLACE
THIS BODY AND MIND OFFERED FREELY TO YOU FOR PLAY
ALLOWING ME TO SERVE YOU IN MY FULL SUBMISSIVE WAY.

EXPLORING ALL I OFFER YOU TO ITS FULL POTENTIAL
USING MY SUBMISSION IN THE WAY I SEE AS ESSENTIAL
ALLOWING ME TO GIVE YOU ALL THAT I CAN BE
SETTING MY FULL SUBMISSION TOTALY AND UTTERLY FREE!

The START OF SERVING MY NEW DOM A NEW PART OF EXPLORING MY SUBMISSION AND DEFFO MOST EXITING ONE TO DATE.

D/S
RELATIONSHIPS ARE NO DIFFRENT TO VANILLA ONE’S NO ONE CAN GAURANTEE YOU
WILL FIND YOUR MATCH FIRST TIME YOU ACCEPT A DOMS OFFER TO GUIDE YOU.   I
THINK A SUB TAKES LONGER TO GET OVER THE WAY SHE FEELS WHEN A DOM
CHOOSES TO RELEASE HER,BUT YOU HAVE TO EXPERIENCE THE WAY A SUB FEELS
TRUST AND RESPECT FOR HER DOM,WHICH I KNOW BY EXPERIENCE IS NEVER
ACHIEVED DURING A VANILLA RELATIONSHIP,ONLY BECAUSE IT ISNT REQUIRED LOL
KINDA LAZY WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT.

D/S COUPLES ARE MORE OPEN AND HONEST WITH THERE PARTNERS THAN I EVER
THOUGHT POSSIBLE,EVERYTHING IS PLANNED WITH SO MUCH CARE AND A NEED BOTH
SUB AND DOM GET FROM DEEP WITHIN FOR 2 VERY OPPOSITE
REASONS…………….ONE YEARNS TO CONTROL THE PERSON THEY CARE FOR
KNOWING EVERY DECISION IS MADE TO KEEP THEM FEELING SECURE WANTED AND
UNDERSTOOD…………THE OTHER NEEDS TO OFFER HER CONTROL OR FREE WILL
OVER TO THE PERSON SHE CARES FOR TO GET THE FEELING SHE ACHIVES BY
SIMPLY KNOWING EVERYTHING SHE DOES SHOULD BRING HER PARTNER PLEASURE,AND
TRUSTING HE WILL ALWAYS KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR THE RELATIONSHIP.

NORMALY TRUST IS THE BIG ISSUE FOR ME AS THIS IS DOM NO 3,ONCE YOU BUILD
ON A HIGH LEVEL AND THINGS GO WRONG IT CAN BE A HUGE DISSAPONTIMENT,AND
TO BEGIN WITH IT FEELS LIKE THE END OF THE BLOODY WORLD.

BUT ONCE YOU ARE SURE OF YOUR SUBMISSION AND GET TO THE STAGE WHERE YOU
KNOW UNLESS YOU CAN SUBMITT YOU WONT EVER BE TRULY HAPPY AND WILL LEARN
TO ACCEPT,IT’S PART OF THE LIFESTYLE.

BUT SOMETIMES IT TEACHES US THINGS WE DIDNT EXPECT TO BE TAUGHT OR HOW
TO FEEL ABOUT THE SITUATION.

I DECIDED TO ASK MY ONLINE MENTOR AND FRIEND IF HE WOULD CONCIDER
GUIDING ME FOR A WHILE,PARTLY BECAUSE I WASNT READY TO GO BACK TO STAGE 1
AND BUILD UP TRUST SLOWLY,AND I HAD EXPERIENCED THE LONG PROCESSS THAT
FOLLOWS PLACING AN AD SEEKING A DOM,BUT THAT INITIAL CHOICE TO OFFER HIM
FIRST.

HAS TURNED OUT TO BE PROBIBLY ONE OF THE MOST SCARY AND INTENSE PLACES I
HAVE EVER FACED WHEN SUBMITTING,ONCE I ACTUATUALY THOUGHT ABOUT,THE
FREINDSHIP I HAD JUST TOOK FOR GRANTED IS SOMETHING MUCH MORE,THAN I
EVER THOUGHT IT WAS.

THIS TIME AND PROBIBLY ONLY TIME I WILL EVER GET TO EXPERINCE HANDING
OVER MY SUBMISSION AND CONTROL TO THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAD BEEN BY SIDE
IN A WAY ALL THE WAY THROUGH MY JOURNEY INTO DESCOVERING MY
SUBMISSION,AND WATCHING ME GROW,HE KNOWS ME ON A LEVEL NO DOM HAS
BEFORE,I GET THE FEELING HE REOLISED THIS FACT BEFORE I DID,THE LENGTH
AND POSSIBLILITES OF HOW DEEPLY MY SUBMISSION CAN BE USED AND TOYED WITH
SCARES,EXITES AND SHOCKS ME ALL AT THE SAME TIME,IM ENJOYING THE WHOLE
PROCESS ALOT EARLIER ON THAN I NORMALY WOULD,AND LIKE THE FACT THAT
ALTHOUGH SIR KNOWS HOW TO PLAY WITH MY MIND AND TEASE ME.I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT HE IS THINKING,OR PLANNING TO DO WITH ME AND THAT JUST EXITES ME 10
TIMES MORE,THIS IS THE FIRST TIME ON MY JOURNEY I HAVE FELT LIKE A TRUE
SUBMISSIVE,AND WILL KNOW MY SUBMISSION IS BEING USED TO IT’S FULL
POTENTIAL……………………..IN TRYING TO FIND MYSELF A SAFE
SECURE AND FAST PLACEMENT,I THINK I SEEM TO HAVE FOUND EXITEMENT,AND A
PLACE I NEVER DREAMED ID EVER GET TO EXPERINCE.

SUB SPACE

THERE’S A PLACE THAT I VISIT IT’S CALLED SUB SPACE
YOU WILL KNOW WHEN IV GONE THERE YOU CAN SEE IT IN MY FACE
VISITING THIS HEAVENLY PLACE IS SO EASY TO DO
THE DESTINATION IS REACHED SIR BY FREELY SERVING YOU
PINS AND NEEDLES BEGIN IN MY FINGERS THEN MY TOES
MY BREATHING BECOMES DEEPER HEART RACING AS IT GOES
SLOWLY PULSING THROUGH ME IN SUCH A PERFECT RYTHME
CAUSING EVERY MUSCLE IN MY BODY TO GRACEFULLY SPASM
COMING BACK DOWN TO EARTH THE EMOTIONS IN ME BEGIN TO STIR
AS I TRY TO CATCH MY BREATH SO I COULD THANK YOU SIR
VISITING THIS VERY SPECIAL PLACE IS SOMETHING I CANT HELP BUT DO
FOR IT IS THE DESTINATION I REACH WHEN I FREELY SERVE YOU.