THE TORTURE OF DAILY LIFE AT NO 10.

COURT CASE PENDING AND I COULD FIND MYSELF EVICTED
THE CHOICE OF AREA I LIVE SEVERLY RESTRICTED
THIS HAS BEEN MY HOME NOW FOR 15 YEARS
BUT WOULD LOOSING BE ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS
IM NOT QUITE SURE,MAYBE IT WOULD BE FOR THE BEST
TO MOVE ON AND LEAVE MY PAST BEHIND TO REST
CAN THIS EVER AGAIN BE CLOSE TO A HAPPY HOME
AFTER THE INNOCENCE WAS STOLEN FROM MY SON
THERE IS NO STRUCTURE RULES OR DISCLIPLINE
PRIDE TO DECORATE IT FEELINGS DEEP WITHIN
THIS ROOF STOPPED BEING A HOME A LONG TIME AGO
AND THE WAY THAT I TREAT IT BEGINING TO SHOW
I CANT STAY HERE AND PUNISH MYSELF ANY LONGER
SIT ON MY OWN MOOD ALWAYS DARK AND SOMBRE
IT’S TIME TO MOVE WE NEED A FRESH START
AS EVERY DAY I SPEND HERE TEARS ME APART
I CAN NEVER CHANGE WHAT MY BABY BOY WENT THROUGH
FROM A PARENT,HIS FATHER SOMEONE HE KNEW
ALL TRUST’S BEEN ABUSED THIS HOME’S BECOME SORRDID
NO HAPPY LAUGHTER,JUST HATE,AND MEMORIES SO HORRID
IF I STAY HERE,FOREVER LET ME BLAME MYSELF SETTLE
THEN THE BASTARD WILL REALY HAVE WON THE BATTLE
I FEARED THAT MAN FOR SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE
EACH DAY I SPEND HERE,IM ALLOWING HIM TO TWIST THE KNIFE
OK SO IM 40,IM STILL IN MY PRIME
AND MAYBE ITS TIME HAPPINESS SHOULD BE MINE
THATS IT MY MINDS UP,I KNOW IN MY HEART
IM READY TO MOVE ON IN LIFE,I DESERVE A FRESH START
NOTHING I DO CAN STOP MY SON GOING THROUGH THAT PAIN
AND LIVING HERE IS SLOWLY DRIVING ME INSANE
SO TODAY IS MY FRESH START,IM LOOKING FOR A NEW HOME
WHERE MY LIFE ON THIS EARTH CAN START TO BE A HAPPY ONE!

DESDAMOANER.

THERE IS JUST SOMETHING MISSING IN MY LIFE!
IM SO USED TO DEALING WITH DESDAMOANER’S TROUBLE AND STRIFE
HE HAS BEEN MY HANDFULL, SINCE HE HIT THE AGE OF TWO
A NIGHTMARE TO ME,OTHERS ALWAYS SEEING THE ANGEL IN YOU!

BLONDE HAIR,BLUE EYE’S AND THAT BLOODY CHEEKY GRIN
NOTHING CHANGED OVER THE YEARS APART FROM NOW YOUR TALL AND THIN
A CHEEKY WE CHANCER,THAT KNOWS HOW TO PLAY ON HIS CHARM
ALWAYS GETTING YOUR OWN WAY,TWISTING MY ARM

IT FEELS SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOUR DAILY CALLS AND TXT’S
REGULAR CUDDLES SO TIGHT YOU NEARLY BREAK MY NECK
IV NO ONE TO ARGUE WITH,OR PUSH MY POINT
CANT EVEN LECTURE YOU,FOR TOKING ON A JOINT!

MIND YOU THE PLUS SIDE IS,THE FOOD CUPBOARDS NEVER BEAR
AND THERES ALWAYS GEL THERE TO FIX MY HAIR
MA PURSE IS A WEE BIT HEAVIER TOO
BUT MA SWEET SON DEEK,IT DOSNT STOP ME MISSING YOU.XXX

YER AULD MAW LOVES THE VERY BONES OF YOU!

LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES.

   HAVE YOU EVER SPENT YOUR LIFE ALWAY’S LOOKING FOR THE PERFECT SUNRISE
WALKING SO FAR AHEAD,YOU NEARLY MISSED THAT SWEET SURPRISE
THE PERSON WHO YOU HAD ALWAYS SEEN AS JUST A FREIND
HELD THE KEY TO MAKING LIFE WORTHWHILE AS YOUR ON THE MEND!

I NEVER PICTURED YOU BEING MY DOM……HOLDING THE HANDCUFFS,CRACKING THAT WHIP
OR LET IT CROSS MY MIND WE WOULD BE COMPATIBLE IN A D/s RELATIONSHIP
IT MAKES IT NO LESS EXCITING……THAT IT’S ONLY SHORT TERM
BECAUSE I KNOW OF THE GREAT EXPERIENCES THAT LIE AHEAD,WHAT I’LL LEARN

YOU WILL ALWAY’S BE MY FREIND…….AND MY CHOICE OF ONLINE MENTOR
YOU KNOW ME INSIDE OUT,WHAT MAKES ME TICK….BOTH HARD AND SOFT CENTER
WITH YOU IV SHARED ALL MY HIDDEN THOUGHT’S AND FEARS
FUCK….YOU CAN READ ME LIKE A BOOK…..IT HAS BEEN OVER 3 YEARS.

I HOPE NOW IT’S WRITTEN MY FIRST POEM TO YOU,WILL PUT YOU AT EASE
IM JUST BEING A TYPICAL…………….SLUT,I JUST LOVE TO TEASE
WELL THAT’S IT DONE NOW,SEXY POEM NUMBER ONE
PHEW……….NOW IT’S OUT THE WAY………..CAN WE PLEASE HAVE FROLICK’S AND FUN?

YOU BRING OUT THE NAUGHTY SIDE TO ME………….
ENJOY IT………..I KNOW I AM.XXX

MY FINEST TREASURES.

THE BOND BETWEEN THIS
MOTHER AND HER SONS
IS AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN A SPECIAL ONE.
IT REMAINS UNCHANGED BY TIME OR DISTANCE.
IT IS ESSENTALY  THE PUREST KIND OF LOVE~
 100% UNCONDITIONAL AND TRUE.
IT IS
UNDERSTANDING OF ANY SITUATION
AND
FORGIVING OF ANY MISTAKE.

THE BOND BETWEEN THIS MOTHER AND HER SONS
CREATES A SUPPORT WILL ALWAYS BE CONSTANT
WHILE EVERYTHING ELSE AROUND US CHANGES.
IT IS MORE THAN MATERNAL LOVE IT’S A FRIENDSHIP BASED ON
MUTUAL UNDYING LOVE,RESPECT AND A GENUINE LIKING
OF EACH OTHER NOT ONLY AS A SIBLING BUT AS A PERSON.

IT IS ALWAYS MEANING THAT YOU KNOW  NO MATTER
WHERE YOU GO WRONG IN LIFE OR WHO YOU ARE,
THERE IS SOMEONE HERE WHO TRULY LOVES YOU
AND JUST LIKE A  MEMORY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE
TO SUPPORT UNDERSTAND AND CONSOLE YOU.
WHEN A
SITUATION YOUR FACING SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE,
WE WILL ALWAYS MAKE IT
THROUGH THE STORMIEST WEATHER
BY HOLDING ON TO FAMILY VALUES WE HAVE BUILT TOGETHER.

THE
BOND BETWEEN THIS MOTHER AND HER SONS
IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE STRONG
ENOUGH TO WITHSTAND
HARSH WORDS THAT OTHERS THROW AT US AND HURT
FEELINGS,
FOR THE BOND WE SHARE IS SMART ENOUGH TO ALWAYS
 NOT JUST SEE  BUT FEEL THE LOVE BEYOND THE WORDS.

IT IS BRAVE AND TRUSTWORTHY ENOUGH TO ALWAYS
 WITH EACH OTHER ONLY EVER SPEAK THE TRUTH,
EVEN WHEN  WE KNOW LIES WOULD BE EASIER.
IT
IS UNBREAKABLE AND ALWAYS WILL BE THERE~
ANYTIME IN MY PLACE IN LIFE YOU NEED IT,ANYWHERE~
WHENEVER YOU SEEK IT, AND AS OFTEN AS NEEDED.

IT IS THE ONE GIFT WE SHARE DEEP IN OUR HEART’S
A SPECIAL BOND THAT WILL ALWAYS LIVE IN OUR SOULS,
UNLIKE OTHER LOVE IT CANNOT BE DISCARDED OR THROWN AWAY
OR WILL IT EVER BE POSSIBLE TO
EXCHANGE FOR ANOTHER.
TO BE LUCKY ENOUGH TO POSSES THIS LOVE
IS MORE THAN MY TREASURE
ITS THE ONLY THING IN MY LIFE THAT I’LL CLASS AS VALUABLE.

THE HEALING PROCESS

I guess to be healed you have to be hurt and broken
have your dreams  and wishes ripped up and torn
yet at the same time im so glad i met you you
and let the real submissive in me be re-born.

i didnt plan to fall for you act weird and  strange
that wasnt what i was seeking when we first started
and i didnt plan to upset you please realise
im so sorry for the way we finaly parted.

but it cant all just be my fault
i cant be the only one to  blame
you have to understand that,
i didnt mean to cause anyone pain.

i hate the way it ended i deserve more
keep asking myself what the fuck did i do
apart from try to be your perfect submissive
wanting to please you  through and through.

Always worshiping and loving  my skin.
when i think of you i still get a tingle in my spine,
Im trying  my best to look forward and not  look behind.
i know in time i’ll undertsand why you left.

that one day my eyes wont cry as with my every single breath.
I know you wont shed a tear over me, my name to you is sickening.
and your probibly pissed off with cruel poems and my bickering.
bet you wish id finaly shut up and take a back seat,
youd think id be over you after all these  weeks.
instead of me dreaming of the day you might say
"Hey Lil one i miss you and i want you  back”.

DIDNT YOU KNOW?

Didnt you know you could finaly  break me,
didnt you listen to a word i said or  realize.
couldnt you see the love in my eye’s
were you just to busy feeling sorry for me,do you still sympathise?
!
feel sorry for the way my life is turning out and growing.
You should have been honest you could have told me.
Why!! did you have to prentend and lie. when i trusted the honesty in your eyes…
when all you saw was a deluded stalker that nags
Your a part of my past. but that ok you wont miss what we had.
and the hero i saw in you is finaly  gone…

sometimes loving someone means you have to walk away.
im not going to beg you to  stay, nor shall i scream and shout!
i cant force you to love me, i know that wont work!
it dosnt matter that iv been hurt,
that i feel like nothing! Worse then dirt
or im left doubting you meant anything you ever did say?

MY SPECIAL SOMEONE

I’ve been loving you for so long
At times i still cant quite beleive you have gone
i keep telling myself if i wasnt so stupid you could  be mine.

i keep asking myself why needed to make myself cry
still i wish you happiness,she says with a sigh

i  let myself fall in love with you,sad but  true

because you were was just another dream that wont come true.

i suppose i always knew the day would come
where we would run out of  time
so i’ll let you go now,without making a fuss
time to let you go and for me to move on…

today is a brand  new day
 and you can never be mine,no matter what i say
its time for me to move on forget what we had
iv spent to mutch time feeling sad and being mad.

You had your chance to be my special someone
i dont just offer myself to everyone and anyone
i could have been the “angel” of your dreams
.if it wasnt for all my madness and my schemes

i lost more than a Dom i lost my best friend
no goodbyes just an abrupt and painfull end
i wish you all the best in life my special friend
even though you broke my heart,my best wishes to you…..i still send

SUFFERING DOSNT BRING GRACE.

BULLYING AT WORK…….HOW OFTEN DOES IT TAKE
PLACE?

HOW MANY OF US SUFFER IN SILENCE JUST TO SAVE
FACE?

AFTER ALL WE ARE ADULTS,ALL GROWN UP
NOW…..

AND HOW DO YOU TELL YOUR BOSS YOU ARE BEING BULLIED
ANYHOW?

MOST PEOPLE WOULD FIND IT HARD TO
BELEIVE

THE LENGTH SOME ADULTS GO TO LIE AND
DECEIVE…

I THOUGHT THE SCHOOL YARD PLAYGROUND WAS
BAD

THOUGHT THAT AND DOMESTIC
VIOLENCE

 WOULD ALWAYS BE THE WORST BULLYING I
HAD

LITTLE DID I KNOW,WHAT LAY FURTHER DOWN THE
LINE!

OR THAT MANAGEMENT TURNS A BLIND EYE TO BULLYING ALL
THE TIME…

IT WOULD SEEM IT’S EASIER TO TURN A BLIND
EYE

TILL THERE NEW STAFF BREAK DOWN IN TEARS AND
CRY!

EVEN THEN THE SOLUTION OFFERD  IS SO
UNFAIR……

‘WE WILL SEE ABOUT MOVING YOU FLOORS MY
DEAR’

WHY SHOULD I MOVE FLOORS,WHAT HAVE I DONE
WRONG?

EXCEPT TO REPORT THE BULLYING THATS GOING
ON!

ISOLATION AT WORK IS A FEELING I CANT
EXPLAIN….

BUT ONE I KNOW TODAY,I’LL BE FACING
AGAIN

I WONT GIVE UP MY JOB…..NO I’LL STAY AND
FIGHT

SOMEONE HAS TO STOP THE BULLYING….BRING IT TO
SIGHT!

IT’S HIGH TIME THE INNOCENT STOPPED FEELING LIKE THEY
WERE BEING PUNISHED

AND ALLOWING THE BULLIES TO GAIN CONTROL WAS WELL AND
TRULY FINISHED!

 

HELP MAKE BULLYING A THING OF THE
PAST!

 

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VICE-VERSA

HAVE I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL? I OFTEN WONDER

IS THAT WHY MY LIFE IS ALL LIGHTING AND THUNDER?

WHILE THE LIGHTING IN MY LIFE BRIGHTENS UP MY DAY

THE THUNDER CRASHES LOUDLY BRINGING DESTRUCTION MY WAY

THE RAIN LASHES DOWN AND STOATS TO THE GROUND

BUT WALKING IN THE RAIN CLEANSES MY SOUL I HAVE FOUND

SO HAVE I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL OR IS IT THE OTHER WAY AROUND?

 

 

SOLITUDE

 ONCE AGAIN I SAT THERE ALL ALONE

NO ONE TO TALK TO,IN MY SOLITUDE

ON MY OWN,AS TRUSTING ANYONE WAS AN ISSUE

I THOUGHT ANY CHANCE OF HAPPINESS HAD GONE.

 

MOVE ON GIRL MANY TIMES IM TOLD!

LEAVE  THE PAST IN THE PAST,LET IT GO

LET A BRAND NEW WORLD FOR YOU UNFOLD

PLEASE DONT LET YOUR HEART TURN COLD.

 

HOW CAN THE WISH OF TRUE LOVE  EVER DIE?

CAN ANYONE EXPLAIN TO ME JUST WHY?

NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTAND’S THE LIFE IV BARED

AND  THAT LEARNING TO LOVE LEAVES ME SO SCARED.

 

WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO LET GO MY PAST,TRY TO MOVE ON?

WHEN MY HEART TELLS THERE MAY BE NO SUCH THING AS YOUR ONE TRUE ONE

,IM DREAMING ID FIND MY SOULMATE,BEST FREIND AND MY LOVER

A SHELTER FROM ALL MY PAIN,MY PROTECTIVE COVER?

 

 SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE HALF OF ME IS MISSING

SEARCHING FOR MY TRUE LOVE I’LL BE ETERNALY WISHING

THAT MAYBE BEFORE I GROW TOO OLD TO FEEL WHOLE

 I MAY JUST FIND MY KINDRED SPIRIT TO SEE MY TRUE SOUL.